so...yeah, being single means i can focus to many other things besides finishing uni and get married, haha. well first, i listened to this awesome classic piano piece called Liebestraum No.3 by Franz Lizst, and right at that moment i was extremely inspired. i regret a little when i stopped practicing piano n get bored with it as a kid. if i were a more diligent kid, i wouldve been so much better than this -__- but anyway that doesnt stop me from (at least) trying. so far ive managed to learn 4 pages out of 7, its hard but sounds nice soo imma master it as fast as i can hehehe

and my another dream is.....well its a little bit high actually.......taking a master degree in...Germany :) yeah, meaning i have to at least learn the language which is called.. Deutsch (i cant even pronounce it back then!!). and its alot harder than english...it has feminine, masculine and neutral word for everything. i mean, why the hell would you know if a table is a male or female?? or the sun?? the moon?? everything! but i wont give up XD, ive learned some grammar and words here and there but its hard to kinda self-teach myself with the help of the internet. im considering to hire a tutor but....this idea only came up to me like a week ago, soo....maybe i'll self-tech myself for a couple months or so..to see if im really mean it, or is it just a temporary ambition. i havent told anyone about it except my mom and dad. and why german? well deutsch language is also spoken in austria, luxembourg and switzerland so if i change plans or whatever i can still have another options. im gonna be 20,5 yrs old when i graduate from swinburne...so i guess i'll still have a year or two to explore the wooorrrlldddd before having to work.

being single has its consequences...yeah that uncertain fate you have to face..at the end of the day, after youre done enjoying your free life, people will expect you to marry. but i dont know and dont really think about that now..love hurts but it is used to shape us rite....i mean we're still young and immature...needs a lesson to change us. i do believe in love, but i dont really think about it as much as i used to...to be honest, if i dont find a guy that i can really love again....i dont want to get into an arranged marriage like they have in india, pakistan, etc lol, im ready not to marry actually. I WANT but if i dont find a match id rather be single forever than having to marry someone i dont have a feeling with. AND i really wish my life was short, seriouslyyy i dont want to get old :( why cant i just die young and go to heaven and live happily ever afteeerrr without worrying about anything.....money..love..sickness...etc T_T its not that im suicidal though, i will NEVER EVER kill myself -- but i just want to die young...sometimes i imagined myself having an accident and die instantly...that painless and fast death....dats wat i want (i really sounds creepy rite now --)
i read about people visiting heaven with Jesus and i just want to leave this earth asap :( from now on ive always been trying to do the right thing in front of God's eyes, just in case Jesus would grant my wish hehehe.
but seriously......the older we get, the more problems we will get too..thats a bit stressing, sooo u see...its really that complicated to live on this earth --
now what we all need to do is strengthen our faith in Jesus Christ every single daaaaayyy.............just in case, u know....just in case ;) hehehehehe

by the way, happy valentine 2014....eventhough now i call it as 'single awareness day'(you know why)it was just an ordinary day for me except that i spent some time staring at the mirror telling how much i love myself lol jk.

so...yeah, being single means i can focus to many other things besides finishing uni and get married, haha. well first, i listened to this awesome classic piano piece called Liebestraum No.3 by Franz Lizst, and right at that moment i was extremely inspired. i regret a little when i stopped practicing piano n get bored with it as a kid. if i were a more diligent kid, i wouldve been so much better than this -__- but anyway that doesnt stop me from (at least) trying. so far ive managed to learn 4 pages out of 7, its hard but sounds nice soo imma master it as fast as i can hehehe

and my another dream is.....well its a little bit high actually.......taking a master degree in...Germany :) yeah, meaning i have to at least learn the language which is called.. Deutsch (i cant even pronounce it back then!!). and its alot harder than english...it has feminine, masculine and neutral word for everything. i mean, why the hell would you know if a table is a male or female?? or the sun?? the moon?? everything! but i wont give up XD, ive learned some grammar and words here and there but its hard to kinda self-teach myself with the help of the internet. im considering to hire a tutor but....this idea only came up to me like a week ago, soo....maybe i'll self-tech myself for a couple months or so..to see if im really mean it, or is it just a temporary ambition. i havent told anyone about it except my mom and dad. and why german? well deutsch language is also spoken in austria, luxembourg and switzerland so if i change plans or whatever i can still have another options. im gonna be 20,5 yrs old when i graduate from swinburne...so i guess i'll still have a year or two to explore the wooorrrlldddd before having to work.

being single has its consequences...yeah that uncertain fate you have to face..at the end of the day, after youre done enjoying your free life, people will expect you to marry. but i dont know and dont really think about that now..love hurts but it is used to shape us rite....i mean we're still young and immature...needs a lesson to change us. i do believe in love, but i dont really think about it as much as i used to...to be honest, if i dont find a guy that i can really love again....i dont want to get into an arranged marriage like they have in india, pakistan, etc lol, im ready not to marry actually. I WANT but if i dont find a match id rather be single forever than having to marry someone i dont have a feeling with. AND i really wish my life was short, seriouslyyy i dont want to get old :( why cant i just die young and go to heaven and live happily ever afteeerrr without worrying about anything.....money..love..sickness...etc T_T its not that im suicidal though, i will NEVER EVER kill myself -- but i just want to die young...sometimes i imagined myself having an accident and die instantly...that painless and fast death....dats wat i want (i really sounds creepy rite now --)
i read about people visiting heaven with Jesus and i just want to leave this earth asap :( from now on ive always been trying to do the right thing in front of God's eyes, just in case Jesus would grant my wish hehehe.
but seriously......the older we get, the more problems we will get too..thats a bit stressing, sooo u see...its really that complicated to live on this earth --
now what we all need to do is strengthen our faith in Jesus Christ every single daaaaayyy.............just in case, u know....just in case ;) hehehehehe

by the way, happy valentine 2014....eventhough now i call it as 'single awareness day'(you know why)it was just an ordinary day for me except that i spent some time staring at the mirror telling how much i love myself lol jk.

so...yeah, being single means i can focus to many other things besides finishing uni and get married, haha. well first, i listened to this awesome classic piano piece called Liebestraum No.3 by Franz Lizst, and right at that moment i was extremely inspired. i regret a little when i stopped practicing piano n get bored with it as a kid. if i were a more diligent kid, i wouldve been so much better than this -__- but anyway that doesnt stop me from (at least) trying. so far ive managed to learn 4 pages out of 7, its hard but sounds nice soo imma master it as fast as i can hehehe

and my another dream is.....well its a little bit high actually.......taking a master degree in...Germany :) yeah, meaning i have to at least learn the language which is called.. Deutsch (i cant even pronounce it back then!!). and its alot harder than english...it has feminine, masculine and neutral word for everything. i mean, why the hell would you know if a table is a male or female?? or the sun?? the moon?? everything! but i wont give up XD, ive learned some grammar and words here and there but its hard to kinda self-teach myself with the help of the internet. im considering to hire a tutor but....this idea only came up to me like a week ago, soo....maybe i'll self-tech myself for a couple months or so..to see if im really mean it, or is it just a temporary ambition. i havent told anyone about it except my mom and dad. and why german? well deutsch language is also spoken in austria, luxembourg and switzerland so if i change plans or whatever i can still have another options. im gonna be 20,5 yrs old when i graduate from swinburne...so i guess i'll still have a year or two to explore the wooorrrlldddd before having to work.

being single has its consequences...yeah that uncertain fate you have to face..at the end of the day, after youre done enjoying your free life, people will expect you to marry. but i dont know and dont really think about that now..love hurts but it is used to shape us rite....i mean we're still young and immature...needs a lesson to change us. i do believe in love, but i dont really think about it as much as i used to...to be honest, if i dont find a guy that i can really love again....i dont want to get into an arranged marriage like they have in india, pakistan, etc lol, im ready not to marry actually. I WANT but if i dont find a match id rather be single forever than having to marry someone i dont have a feeling with. AND i really wish my life was short, seriouslyyy i dont want to get old :( why cant i just die young and go to heaven and live happily ever afteeerrr without worrying about anything.....money..love..sickness...etc T_T its not that im suicidal though, i will NEVER EVER kill myself -- but i just want to die young...sometimes i imagined myself having an accident and die instantly...that painless and fast death....dats wat i want (i really sounds creepy rite now --)
i read about people visiting heaven with Jesus and i just want to leave this earth asap :( from now on ive always been trying to do the right thing in front of God's eyes, just in case Jesus would grant my wish hehehe.
but seriously......the older we get, the more problems we will get too..thats a bit stressing, sooo u see...its really that complicated to live on this earth --
now what we all need to do is strengthen our faith in Jesus Christ every single daaaaayyy.............just in case, u know....just in case ;) hehehehehe

by the way, happy valentine 2014....eventhough now i call it as 'single awareness day'(you know why)it was just an ordinary day for me except that i spent some time staring at the mirror telling how much i love myself lol jk.